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RUBIKSCUBE STAIRCASE (2013)

by EASTGHOST

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This album was written over the course of 3 months, as a project of recovery from a near-death-experience on January 26th, 2013 through especially January 29th, and more broadly February 7th. That night of 01.26.13, five of my closest friends and I mistakenly ingested a chemical; which we still to this day remain unclear of its content, and it left all but one of us hospitalized. I was delivered the most physically devastating hit of the group, enduring prolonged tonic seizures, and eventual comatose where I stayed for a little under three days. From there, I was transported to iNOVA Fairfax Hospital in Virginia where I stayed in ICU, and was treated with dialysis until my kidneys had regained function and I was essentially able to care for myself again. I was hospitalized for roughly two weeks.
The intention of the group that night was celebratory, some friends were moving out of town & we held a small going-away party. We all took the substance under the pretense that it was MDMA (we all took around 150 mg each, this is a slightly above average dose to experience effects but all involved were familiar so we took an amount we were comfortable with). At about 25 minutes in, the group began to experience visual distortions that were not akin to MDMA. Suddenly everything appeared to swirl and breathe. There were flashes of light & color like one might experience several hours into the effects of LSD. Colors ebbed & saturated vividly and a collective worry filled the room. We were all aware that something was off. By one hour in, we were having difficulty discerning the things we were seeing, It was puzzling to form basic sentences & we were confident that a mistake had been made. By 90 minutes in the house was in a panic & each individual who took the substance was in their own, unique physical and mental discomfort. Our friends who luckily did not take the substance contemplated the severity of the situation & whether drastic measures needed to be taken. As the hallucinations took rule over my mind I became unaware of my surroundings, I tried to lay down on the floor & center myself but I was no longer in control.
The experience became hallucinogenic beyond explanation. To put it boldly, it was a desecration of my senses. I felt a repetitive sensation of falling and trying to catch myself, like when tipping back in a chair. I felt as though I was being electrocuted perpetually. I was repeatedly stuck in strange & cyclical thought loops that were so disorienting & confusing it caused me to lose track of time & eventually even lose my sense of self. To further describe the experience in words would almost be to disrespect it's intensity but in short, I lost my awareness of reality. I reached a point of contentment with death & had lost all communication with my surroundings & senses.
At this point I was technically overdosing & began to have seizures at which point my friends called an ambulance. Police arrived at my house, everyone under the influence was taken to the hospital or into custody & handcuffed. The last thing I remember being present was the taste of blood & vomit in my mouth, a blue and red flash of light & a sense cold that felt as if it was pulling me into the ground.
Traveling through my experience I came in contact with what I perceived to be my last two past lives, first as a willow tree (I'm a Tree). The second and most recent as old woman. I saw her alone in a hospital, sitting in a wheelchair smoking a cigarette that never seemed to get any shorter, she had large white hair, wearing a violet and turquoise windbreaker. (The Old Woman) right before I began seizing, I was screaming to my friends in the room, "I'm the Sacrifice, you get there, and you see it, and... And then, you Die" (Sacrifice) (And then, you Die)
The introduction track was assembled using vocal samples from friends, members of my family, and doctors from my stay at the hospital. recalling memories of conversations shared. Near the end of the track was my best attempt at recreating the auditory hallucinations that occurred during the time while I was having the seizures. I explained it most commonly as having my brain, stuck within the wedges of a large, hellish malfunctioning machine known as (The Crank)
...Enjoy.

credits

released April 25, 2013

Jesse Iddings, JJ Fifield, Gabriel Sites, Madeline Cain, Heather Platz...

Mara Rogers (m ∆iR a), Future Islands, Judy Garland, Ellen Burstyn (Requiem for a Dream) Christopher McCandless via Emile Hirsch (Into the Wild), Zach Gregory, David Price, Sarah Hernandez, Jil MacMenamin, Stephanie Dasai, Morgan McDaniel, Mark Akeley, Alexander Heberle , Claire & Brandon Clark, and all who contributed to my recovery at iNOVA FAIRFAX.

A Special Thank you to...
Michael Perdew (KNX1KNXWS) & Caitlyn Harvey for being my guardians, and making the tough decision. I owe you guys my life and pride.

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